Thursday, December 21, 2023

Gurl STFU and blow tf up

Current Mood: 😡 irritated
Listening to: 999999999 - X0003000X
Watching: The Haunting in Connecticut 2: Ghosts of Georgia
Reading: Fanfiction
Playing: High on life
Eating: Texas-style cheeseburger with red ginger
Drinking: Coke




So it's just been on my mind for some bit since my last 2 cons but I'm really starting to wonder if people don't have etiquette or if they are just outright stupid with no home training. Now considering queers let alone alternatives will have intense art. I'm not sure if it really bothers me much when people say "oh your art is scary" but more so is that all you have to say when you look at my art? You don't see the years of skill? Experience? Originality that goes into it or? It's funny some folks will say this yet still buy my work and I'm just in awe at how weird they are to me.

I think one particular comment that got me was these 2 women who came to my table and her friend was eyeing my work up and down while the main one was saying "Oh this is so scary" like 3 times. I had enough and said bluntly "Well yeah considering my art name is Tainted. Sweet. Meats it is kind of my personal M.O". She was like "Oh I can see that" with a weird cali white girl attitude and I'm like " well glad you have eyes to see and note that so vocally" Now I'm usually not an outright bitch but I kinda had my limit. She walked away but her friend seemed enamored with my art and bought a few prints and stickers and was really interested in where to find me on social media. Completely ignoring her friend. BOY do I love it when someone has their own mind enough not to make their friends push them away from things they want. So that was a nice experience at the punk rock flea market.

What gets me is I've heard this from folks online as well who tend to not have enough social skills to just think that's something you say to someone. An think it's a compliment. I'm not saying my work is not intense. No shit, I'm an intense person, I have had intense experiences, and a life that is 100% in my work, ocs, and over all creativity. If my work seems aggressive, well better it on paper than a knock in someone's neck for pisssing me off or being idiotic to me. It's therapy for me. It's logical and safe considering my anger issues. And hey it creates some great stuff. I guess it just got to me to make such a snide snooty comment back to scare a bitch off.

My thing is... if art cant invoke an emotion is it even fucking art or are you just drawing? Art is meant to cause an emotional stir. If it makes you happy, sad, scared, or whatever... it did something to you to stop, stare, and feel. Ugh just had to talk about this cause while it's not 100% getting to me I am starting to feel as time goes on people are getting stupider by the minute.  I'm not a bitchy pissy person but I am sarcastic and definitely not someone who tolerates underhanded remarks trying to be rude but cute at the same time. IMMA EMBARRASS YOU.

Tuesday, December 19, 2023

Man I'm Tired, but what a good fucking year

Current Mood💨 Tired
Listening to: Zeromancer - Flirt With Me
Watching: An American Tail
Reading: Fanfiction
Playing: Nothing
Eating:  Chinese fried chicken with shoelace fries
Drinking: Jasmine milk tea



Tis the holidays and I am beyond tired. all my cons I was vending at this year is over and I am ready to PARRRRRRRRRRTY. 

As much as I love vending at cons, I can not leave that party bitch behind and so happy I got a cybergoth/industrial event this Saturday. Kinda sick of being in the house and working rn. I WANT TO MOTHA FUCKIN PARTY AND GET CRUUUUUUUUNK!

Went to Ulana's goth/industrial event this Saturday and maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan I had a fucking blast. It's no secret at the start opf covid I was still in NYC and my party days were put on hold with the goth events back with the nightlife Gotham city halo. While parties were still being hosted I just refused to go since at the time there was no vaccine and Mfers were just not masking. So I haven't been to one in 3 or so years. Now that I'm super vaxxed and still mask I head to events again and man I need this. I got drunk, and danced with so many other goths and it was just good feels.

It pains the hell out of me that I missed a very obvious social cue with the bartender though. There was a  tall woman in leather with a huge 70's afro who well ....kept flirting with me. Now at first I thought she was being nice cause I tip with every drink I buy and I bought about 7 including a shot of Jack. she had casually brought up how she is a dominatrix and works for the owner and is great friends with her at the establishment and she wants to host a BDSM goth night to bring her subs. She also while flirting said you should come too you look very beautiful and would love for me to attend. Now my stupid ass only thought oh she is being nice but she was doing more than being nice...aaaah well next time since she works there weh weh.

Also vid from the party


The next event is tomorrow at the Christmas Village and I am excited weeeeee and trying to see if I can make another goth event to dance the year away before the new year hits. Not much art sharing cause Imma be real living life after getting married and ion got time for online if I don't finish work to post... I'm partying it up thank fuck.


Also, not much going on I have been arting, trying to not forget drawing skills or what I learn. But being a selfish biotch and keeping it to myself until I am ready to post really or finish things until I see fit..so yeah I am being a bit anal with my work.... but here is some stuff I'm working on

Any ways doing some personal small work for myself and the hubs, got some ways to go before this is postable.



and this image was from 2016 that I decided to finally put some color on also not done at all but sneak peaks sneak peaks



Cya for now time to get my party on wooohoooo